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Mar. 10th, 2022 08:34 pm
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Hi, I'm Meredith! I'm 32, aro ace, Jewish, and prefer she/they pronouns. I go by gladdecease in most fannish circles (Meredith ~ merry death ~ glad decease, I was 14 and it sounded both deep and unique) and have been more or less active in those circles for... so many years. Though the last few have been spent lurking more than participating.

My fic is all on AO3 these days, but my fannish thoughts don't have as clear a place to live - I "don't" "use" tumblr and twitter is a hellscape - so I'm attempting to revive this account. For the... third time? fourth? Locking up my old/personal posts on this account, but new posts will all be public visibility, I don't have any takes so hot that I feel the need to hide them.

These days I am very averse to mixing RL and fannish stuff, so I'm keeping RL events, politics, etc. on a limited access level. If you're interested in having access to that stuff, comment here to request it.
gladdecease: (helmsmen)
today in trekfiles: biblical references! cults, kind of? searches for paradise that end in death! and... very little else in common.

detailed thoughts )
gladdecease: (you're a turtle!)
As someone who grew up without pets — my mother was terribly allergic to cats and sufficiently allergic to dogs to deter our interest — becoming a dog owner has been an experience that is enriching and frustrating in turns. I expected the financial costs, the hazards to carpet and vacuum alike. I hoped for the affectionate companion, or I wouldn't have bought one in the first place. I did not expect the ways having a dog would tether me.

Anchor me? No, I think tether — there is some limited freedom to roam, and I think without her rather than drift out to sea I would drift up into space. I have been bound to life, and to living in the present moment, thanks to this dog, but I'm also bound to this space. Sometimes for good — she is the simplest and most acceptable excuse for Not Doing Things With People — but sometimes I do feel stuck. Not that I think that, without dog ownership, I would have gone on any of the particular trips I've longed to take… but she certainly makes it more of a financial challenge, and a logistical one.

(To say nothing of my idle dreams of moving house. Half the dreams are of large yards she can run around in; the other half are of narrow city townhouses where she would be utterly miserable. It's impossible to reconcile the two fantasies, and the occasional thoughts of "well maybe, after the dog…" are unhelpful.)

I don't really have a conclusion to these thoughts. They've just been circling in my head for enough hours tonight that I knew I had to write them down, or I'd never get them out of there.

mandatory cute dog picture below the cut )
gladdecease: (unimpressed)
I think all of my trekfiles documentation to date has been on microblogging platforms, so to sum up the concept: my sister makes me watch an episode of The X-Files, and then I make her watch an episode of Star Trek. We’re approaching the eighty episode mark now, five or six years after starting this venture. (It went a lot faster when we were still living in the same house.) We plan on going through all Trek in air order, and while I know she does have plans for shows to bring in after we run out of X-Files I do not know what those shows are.

I like to think over the episodes after the fact, see if there’s any common feeling or coincidental similarities. And also just to reflect on my memory of watching these Star Trek episodes back in 2009/10 versus rewatching them now, because Dang, My Memory Of The Bad Stuff Is Patchy.

If there’s a theme today, I’m afraid it’s ‘men thinking they know better than a woman what’s best for her.’ )
gladdecease: (beating klingons at their own games)
This is a DND game a rl friend pulled me in on, after they had already been going a few sessions - a WotC module, with official puzzles and NPCs and all that. And we are an absolutely chaotic bunch. Lots of party members here to kill shit and get paid and that's it, and then here I come in with sincere intentions to RP more than fight... with my Dragon Ball expy character. (I love him, but even his name is a joke.)

There's far too much story to cover in any kind of Road So Far, but suffice it to say we got to the city the titular tomb is in. Eventually. (We've been doing monthly? bimonthly? sessions for two or three years now.) Read more... )
gladdecease: A Deadpool speech bubble (and the top third of his head), reading: Isn't expository dialogue informative and fun? (the fourth wall? what's that?)
When I finally succeeded in importing my livejournal yesterday, and went back to adjust privacy settings, I was highly amused to see that the earliest post (certainly not the first post I ever actually posted, just the first post I didn't later delete) was teenage me griping about my mother making me pluck my brows and learn how to do make up, vaguely wishing I was not a girl.

Like: oh, honey, that feeling never really goes away. but at least you got a word for it eventually.
gladdecease: AIW Wanda doing something terrible with her powers. (noooo whyyyyy)
Yes, I know, back on dw to once again angrily meta about genre fiction that Did Me Wrong, but.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Nothing new under the sun.

Spoilers for the finales of How I Met Your Mother and Supernatural below. )
gladdecease: (my logic is infallible)
I don't know why I'm having such a hard time coming up with a fic for this trope. Time travel is, like, my favorite thing. (See: Doctor Who, Booster Gold, my favorite episodes of any Star Trek or Stargate series.)

But, on the bright side, that means it's pretty easy for me to throw together a time travel rec list at the last minute! (If I had more time to scour my bookmarks, I'd make this specifically a Peggy Sue rec list, buuuut there's less than two hours before the bingo period closes, so generically time travel-flavored it is!)

Speranza is a huge name in SGA fandom for a reason - she wrote a lot, she wrote it long, and she wrote it hot. But I think Sheppard's Law is my favorite of her fics, because it takes this situation - John is stuck in a box that's manipulating his past to kill him, so Rodney goes back into his past and saves him over and over again - and really delves into what makes John John, and how his relationship with Rodney changes and remains fundamentally the same because of this course of events. (I really like how the alterations come into effect, new but so seamlessly inserted it's hard to remember that for long.)

Timeline, by Unforgotten, is a great pair of X-Men movieverse fics. She writes Charles and Erik with a touch of absurd humor to them, and in a way so that you can clearly feel both the MacAvoy/Fassbender and Stewart/McKellen personalities shine through. This is an excellent Peggy Sue fic (aka Character Time Travels to Fix It, named after the movie Peggy Sue Got Married), where Charles of an X2 AU sends his mind back in time to fix the past, using a very stupid plan. He doesn't get everything perfectly right - something that bugs me about some Peggy Sue fics - in fact, this Charles is so delightfully flawed that it's amazing he gets anything right. It ends on a wonderful, happy note, and the second fic does nothing to reduce that, but instead fleshes out background events in a very nicely written way.

Another favorite along this line - an X-Men movieverse Peggy Sue fic, that is - is Sponge Away the Writing, by Tam_Cranver. The difference between this fic and many others, is that the younger version of Charles is still aware - is, in fact, the dominant version in his head - and thus concerns which are more immediate and relevant to him than to his forty-years-older self are given space in the story, and are allowed to matter. The result is an unexpected amount of compromise between these two Charleses, and ultimately a far happier ending.

A twist on the Peggy Sue trope combines it with the Groundhog's Day time loop trope, so your character of choice keeps traveling back in time involuntarily, and will do so until some arbitrary requirements are met - usually Fixing whatever needed to be Fixed, but sometimes authors get cruel on you. My favorite Groundhog Peggy Sue fic, by far, is the stunning, epic-length Les Mis fic Toil Until the Old Colours Fade, by drcalvin. Toil takes Javert, a character who, when faced with the first moral dilemma of his life, chose to commit suicide rather than struggle with the concept any further, and forces him to adjust to his new worldview by refusing to let him die. He learns and grows and dies, and learns more, and dies, again and again, and this allows his immense character growth over the course of the fic to feel incredibly earned.
gladdecease: AIW Wanda doing something terrible with her powers. (:()
So your favorite character is dead.

Well, that sucks. There's a couple things you can do about it: you can accept it, and try to move on; you can live in denial, and pretend it never happened; you can imagine ways they might have survived. And if you're lucky, maybe it'll turn out that they did.

Sherlock Holmes is one of the more famous cases, pretending to be dead so Watson would write his death for the public, so he could get rid of his enemies in secret. The BBC Sherlock adaptation's is in the middle of an interesting take on it, and goodness knows I'd love to see Elementary try it. (Not for a few years yet, I hope.)

Of Reichenbach-related fics I've read go, I favor the work-in-progress The Sigerson Letters by h3rring and makokitten for Sherlock, and The Three Favors by Katie Forsythe for the ACD book version of Holmes. Sigerson deals with John in the interim, and Sherlock subtly making contact with him via pseudonyms and the like. The Three Favors brings a heartbreaking twist to things - and really, the idea that Holmes thought Watson could only write a convincing death for Holmes if he actually believed him dead is more heartbreaking, so I'm really quite okay with the twist.

Another well known presumed dead context: superhero comics! There used to be a saying - no one stays dead except Jason Todd and Bucky Barnes. That's certainly no longer true. It might be more accurate to say no one stays dead except the Waynes and Uncle Ben, but even that isn't always certain. Death is very impermanent in comics - and in the rare cases when it isn't, fans are more than ready to take up the task.

One prime example is Ted Kord, the second Blue Beetle, who was so unlucky as to be killed off during a Crisis event, and succeeded by the more popular Beetle Jaime Reyes in a way that essentially requires Ted's death for him to take on the mantle. (Not to mention that Ted doesn't exist, dead or otherwise, in the current comics continuity.) This leads to a lot of denial fic, and a lot of fix-its - many based on the almost fix-it that appears in the 2010 Booster Gold run.

An excellent death fix that predates those comics is DoctorV's Mullet-verse, a cracky, long, and involved series including kidfic, zombies, failed attempts at villainy, time travel, legacy heroes, and a heaping helping of denial. It's... hard to explain properly. But trust me, it's worth reading. Set aside a weekend, or space the fics out over a few days.

A fic on the opposite end of things - which takes into account the almost fix-it from Booster Gold, the Flashpoint reboot, and two months of new 52 continuity - is the fantastic Trapped on the Merry-go-round by Muccamukk. Ted, having accepted that he needed to die to keep the world from falling into a Crisis-related dystopia, is about to die again when the reboot happens, and Rip Hunter drags him into the reboot. The resulting events, and the reason why Rip saves Ted, make for a very fun read.

Stargate's good for presumed dead fics - they've got a canonical "get out of death free" clause in Ascension, and there's any number of episodes where Jack or John or the entire team goes missing for awhile, to say nothing of the countless near death situations. argosy's Ascending Order takes one such situation ("Tao of Rodney") and turns it into a presumed dead fic, with an Ascension escape clause. Most of the fic is centered on John dealing with his grief and realizing Rodney is still helping out around Atlantis, and it works really well.

I also really enjoy kisahawklin's Cardiogenesis (The Heart of the Matter), which also kills-but-not-really Rodney off. This one takes advantage of the mysterious, poorly understood Ancient technology in Atlantis to bring back Rodney, and then bring back Rodney, in a way that makes you think about personality, individuality, how much you can influence that and how much is set in stone.

Another genre's take on dead-but-not-permanently is ~magic~. Buffy Summers crawled out of her own grave, the Winchesters have died and been brought back any number of times (including one very similar to Buffy's), when Andy Brook's contract with Moloch wasn't up when he died, he got revived... you name a horror/fantasy show, and it's probably messed around with death at least once. For a long time one of my favorite subgenres of Supernatural fic was character death fixes - Anna's, Gabriel's, then Sam's, then Castiel's... for human characters, death fixes are pretty easy. They happen so often in canon, after all! Angels are a little more complicated, and I think no fic shows that better than In His Image, a Gabriel resurrection/redemption fic by Whit Merule where Kali revives him. Since she's from a different pantheon he doesn't come back quite the same, and he spends a long time trying to figure out who he is now, and where he stands when it comes to the Winchesters and his brothers' world-destroying fight.

To end this rec list, here's a fic that plays the trope straight: on admin error {execute contingency plan} is a really excellent Person of Interest fic written by jedibuttercup for Yuletide 2012, that takes a situation where Finch and Reese are presumed dead and says, "Okay, what then?" The Machine is still functioning, after all, and there is someone out there who can do the legwork...
gladdecease: Rose Quartz, wearing her Mr Universe shirt, starry eyed. (*-*)
Fake relationships! Another one of my favorite tropes - intimacy and domesticity is forced on a couple for work reasons of some kind, or maybe they need to be married for legal reasons... or maybe they're trying to get away from a date who doesn't understand the word "no", or maybe they don't want to have to deal with their parents asking why they're still single. Whatever the reason, it brings about a lot of fun.

Firstly, fake relationships in actual media.

Person of Interest played with this in the episode "The High Road," when John and Zoe pretend to be a married couple freshly moved to the suburbs. I love what PoI did with the trope - John and Zoe are a fun pair of characters in any situation, but when they're both messing with someone else is probably the best.

NCIS did a story with this trope too, to delve into the UST between Tony and Ziva early on in her time on the show. Looking back at the episode so many years later, how the two of them interact while not!married seems a little strange... but at the time it made for quite the interesting story.

One of the Torchwood companion novels, SkyPoint, does something similar - Owen and Tosh pretend to be married so they can investigate the alien thingamabob of the week. It fits neatly into canon, so the arrangement doesn't end as happily as fic would make it, or as I would like, but I still enjoyed it.

Now, fake relationships in fic!

chellefic's SGA fic titled Catch-19 is a fun "for the green card" subtrope fic - except the green card isn't for staying in the US, it's for staying on Atlantis. SGA, both fic and canon, has a way of making me believe in any ridiculous idea Rodney has, and this one is no different. (There's also a very enjoyable podfic of the story read by torra, which is worth a listen if you have an hour to kill.)

Collar U, a BDSM AU Fake News fic by SailorPtah, sort of falls under that subtrope too. Stephen's traditional parents don't want to let their young sub go to college uncollared, so his switch BFF Jon agrees to be his dom for the duration of school. I don't really go for BDSM AUs much, but this one is more worldbuilding and "what does queerness mean in this context" than kinky sex, and the relationship development is great.

Even a Miracle Needs a Hand, an MCU fic by victoria_p, is a great example of the "pretending a guyfriend is a boyfriend for the parents" subtrope. Clint and Darcy have romantic tension underlying their interactions throughout, but it's the sudden domestic context and seeing how well he gets along with her family that pushes Darcy to actually make them happen.

thehoyden's Star Trek: Deep Space Nine fic, Opacity of Paradise, is another really good one. It's not quite a fake relationship - it's more accurate to say they're getting space!married and starting a romantic relationship at about the same time - but there's a big ulterior motive to the marriage that reminds me of this trope.

Last, but hardly least, A Lopsided Symmetry of Sin and Virtue by language_escapes is a fantastic Elementary take on the "fake relationship for work reasons" subtrope. Sherlock and Joan go undercover to find out where babies are disappearing to, and the forced intimacy of the situation kinda messes with their heads, and stays with them afterwards.
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Rivals to lovers is one of my favorite tropes - granted, I like it a little better as "rivals to allies to friends to lovers," but that's such a mouthful. But positive/constructive relationship growth in general is my favorite thing, and while the trope could lead to destructive relationship growth (rivals become lovers and it blows up in their faces/their relationship really is as dysfunctional as their rivalry would suggest), I don't come across a lot of fics that treat it that way.

To get the full "rivals to allies to friends to lovers" effect usually requires a hefty word count to show the transitioning/developing relationship, but I love me some longfic. And even when it's a more direct rivals to lovers fic, there's potential for longfic. And I can't deny that direct-to-lovers fic makes for more belligerent sexual tension, which I like a lot.

Early on in Psych, for example, Shawn and Lassiter have a relationship that runs the gambit from simply competitive to irritated to outright hostile, but with an edge which lends itself well to rivals to lovers. My favorite of these is probably What Happens In Freedom Stays In Freedom by Lenore, a really excellent get together/caper fic written for Yuletide 2007. It's got this slightly absurd nature that really suits the show, and has a great Lassiter voice.

Teen Wolf is good for rivals to lovers fic too - though the life-and-death situations makes the term "rival" feel a little inaccurate, the bickering and tension between characters definitely fits the trope. Unmovable & Unstoppable by maderr is a good Derek/Stiles fic in this respect, though it takes a long time to move from one state to the other. It's also got an interesting casefic element to it, which I can always appreciate.

I also like fic that fits the anger-to-attraction mood shift of rivals to lovers, even though the characters involved aren't always rivals. Just What is a Karmic-chi Love Thing, Anyway?, an NCIS fic by catwalksalone, takes an episode where Tony and McGee being stuck on a stakeout has made them petty and quick to anger, and turns their cut-to-commercial scuffle into cut-to-commercial frottage. Cat always has an excellent Tony voice in her fics, and this one is no exception. You do probably want to be familiar with the episode in question, though, since the events serve as a strong framework for the fic.

The Mindy Project is great for het rivals to lovers, small fandom though it is - the titular Mindy has off-and-on antagonistic relationships with so many people. Her coworkers, the midwives downstairs, total strangers... even some of her canon relationships get antagonistic. when you wish upon a star (or bury some mustard seeds outside your place of work) you look like an insane person (but i'm into that, i guess), a Yuletide 2012 fic by Kindness, does a really good job of infusing Mindy's narration with those antagonistic thoughts. It works really well from the first line to the last.

And then there's fic where, even when they become lovers, there's still an antagonistic element to their relationship. (aka: hatesex) The Curves of Your Lips Rewrite History, a Les Mis fic by zamwessell, does a pretty amazing job of taking characters who canonically don't really do either hate or sex and presenting a convincing hatesex relationship between them. (There's also really nice, gradual growth and realization of feelings going on in this fic, though the characters take their time in acknowledging that the hatesex has become something else.)
gladdecease: Matilda (of the book of the same name), reading a book. (reading is gr9)
Imagine a world where pairs of people are literally perfect for each other.

I don't mean they have no conflict, or that they're identical in every way; nor do I mean that they argue constantly, or that they're different in complementary ways. The most important relationship in a person's life can't be generalized that easily. I just mean that for whatever reason, they are vital and necessary to each other's life. It need not be sexual, or romantic - it is simply an essential connection, without which their lives are somehow, indescribably, less.

If you're a romantic person, you might be thinking, "Okay, but how is that any different from our world?"

The difference, you'll find, is that they have physical proof: a marking, a band around the base of the fourth finger of your dominant hand. It's called different things in different cultures, but the most common name for it is a True Ring, and it develops spontaneously the first time your soulmate looks you in the eye.

More details - including speculation/near-fic about how living a world with True Rings might have influenced events in stories you already know - below the cut. )

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